De-stress Mom?

That was the question of the day! What can I do (asked to each one in the family) to de-stress mom? I am having a horrible time of coping with my emotions. I look into the faces of my loved ones and want so badly to share with them how much I love them, but then ten seconds later, I am yelling. I don't know what is going on! I think the last two years of stress is eating me up. I want to just have a good "cry out" but it won't come. I tired, exhausted, happy, relieved, and I fluctuate through all those feelings in a matter of seconds. Does anyone remember the story of my first postpartum breakdown after I had Valerie? Okay, I will remind you! I lost Mark's keys, he blamed me for being irresponsible (he was very polite about it) and I took that remark and cried in the bathroom for a good 30 minutes! I think my sister witnessed the insanity! Anyway my point is, that is how I am feeling now. Out of the control of all my emotions! It is driving everyone crazy around here. I feel so awful but can't seem to get things under control!! Mom and Shannon, I know what you are saying to yourselves right now...Do we have to go visit her? Yes, you do! So I am trying to de-stress...I made chocolate no bake cookies (which would have been great if I hadn't forgot the peanut butter and the vanilla extract in them)! Mark said he needed to lace them with syrup of Ipecac (because I don't NEED them). My kids said about five things they could do to de-stress me...which lasted till this evening, of course. Hats off to them for trying. Mark is simply trying to steer clear of me (right now he is in the other room, where crazy Ang is not)! I don't blame him! I looked at his blog just hoping he put something on there saying how proud he was of me...but nothing! How can you post about eating Alligator appetizer, and not about your wife's exciting news? Okay, there goes those emotions again! We did have a fun day though! We went to Village BBQ and the pet store (we wanted a puppy but unfortunately they were asking the same price for the puppy as someone would for a 2006 Ford Mustang), and the furniture store (yes, I would like to get some comfortable furniture when we finally start making two incomes). Oh, let me clarify my prior post! We aren't coming home just yet...will see what the summer holds. I will be working at JRMC in the SICU for the time being! Here are a couple of pictures from the de-stress mom day (we might need to turn this into a week). What does it mean when all you want to do is lay in bed and eat chocolate! Don't worry, I can diagnosis myself but I thought you might want to try! Good luck, and let me know! I think I will try and watch "The Upside of Anger" from netflix! Off to bed with me...again (but this time I have a plate full of chocolate)!