Tears and A Year

 

We made it through a year. A year of missing my brother in law. A year of grief watching the kids achieve milestones and dreams without Mike on the sidelines. A year without my sister having a partner, friend, and soul mate to share life with. A VERY hard year. She is such a graceful griever. She has taught me so many things this year...Grace being the biggest! Grace with my co workers, Grace with my spouse, and grace with my brother. I may not always heed her advice at first but I'm diffusing faster than I use too. No use in keeping grievances because enemy, foe, family, or spouse we will ALL end up here. Truly you can't take anything with you!

My mom and I made sure no one would have to go a dirty gravesite on a Tuesday that week so we went and cleaned everything up on Sunday. We bought a new flag, a "Believe" stone, some flowers, and mom even bought presents for the kids and left them there. I cleaned, polished, and waxed the stone shiny! Mom left her favorite bean recipe just in case he needed to feed Jesus the best beans ever! Good call mom. 

On Tuesday I took the kids skating to get my mind off of the day. It didn't work. I sat in Tiffany's and boo hoo'd through a good portion of it. Charlie gave me advice and said anytime she thinks of Mike she remembers that he's in here (pointing to her ❤️). She always knows the right things to say to me when I'm sad. She is such a old soul!!!