The Third? Why?

1. to be needed 2. to see the relationships that emerge between the three (ethan and val want one) 3. to play the guess who's pregnant game with my mom 4. cuz trying is always fun 5. to attempt a vbac 6. to buy whatever i want for this baby since finances will finally allow 7. to have a child my parents can watch grow...not see only twice a year 8. to nurse one last time (favorite part for me) 9. to feel that new connection again 10. to be able to make this decision for myself 11. feeling that lil one kick and twist inside me 12. all the cute baby clothes, binkis, and diapers (did i just say diapers would be a reason?) 13. because the desire to have one more is not gone 14. to have a finale moment...to say goodbye to this part of my life 15. the smell of a baby 16. baby pictures 17. to avoid future regret 18. and most importantly, to avoid being the older mother in the doctor's office waiting room, who looks fondly at the new mothers holding their infants and wishes secretly that they could reverse time. 19. might get lucky and have twins